Ray Of Hope For Azalea: 04/01/2005

Friday, April 29, 2005

It's A Girl !!

Congratulations to Sity & Azrai for the arrival of their new born baby girl, Sity Insyirah on 28/04/05 at 6.00 am. Bundles of joy for both of you and good luck on parenting !!

I wish I can come and visit you at Ampang Puteri but I'm down with fever, flu and cough. Wouldn't want to infect mom, dad and baby :)

A Poem For Baby Sity Insyirah

When you see the wonder in her eyes
and sweetness in her smile,
when you hold her close to your heart,
your tiny miracle of love...

When you kiss her precious little face
and hold her trusting hand,
you'll know that God has given you
a blessing from above.

P/S : Had my second pregnancy gone smoothly, I would have delivered on the same day. Oh Well, that's another story. Meanwhile I'm sharing other parents' joy ;)

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Wednesday, April 27, 2005

I was Ranked At No. 12 Today

I was ranked at no. 12 on Malaysia Top Blogs today. This is the highest rank I've gotten so far. Pretty exciting :D .Normally the space after "Rank" is blank. I think by the time i post this it will be blank again. Ha ha ..momentary success.

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Ello..Ello... Is Anyone There?

I watched White Noise on DVD last night. The movie was trying to bring in a different concept on how the dead can communicate with the living. The story revolved around a man Jonathan Rivers who at first has a happy family, living with his pregnant wife and son. Of course like other thrillers, the happiness didn’t last forever. His wife went missing one day and ended up dead.

Grief stricken he was and one day a man came and told him that his wife has been trying to contact him through electronic devices, hence the term EVP came into the picture. EVP or Electronic Voice Phenomenon is a condition where the dead tried to communicate with the living through household electronic devices (this includes the radio, TV, phones bla..bla). At first you will hear static and unclear transmission. But once you transfer it to magnetic audio/video tape, you can actually hear and see blurry figure which were supposed to be dead people.

At first, I thought the movie was kinda cool but soon after, it started to drag. There was nothing much to see except Keaton too obsessed with the EVP thingy and started to contact his wife and seemed to leave behind other of-this-world business. It is ironic when an educated man (he’s an architect in this film and has his own co-firm), can immediately turn to someone who believes something so out of-this-world and superstitious at the same time.

There were of course suspense moments, when he accidentally communicate with the bad side of the dead world. The 3 figures (who I have no idea who they are until the end of the film, I presumed are criminals during their living years), who seemed to be vulgar, wicked, malicious spirits that can harm human.

To cut it short, he realized that his wife death was not an accident but was caused by a man who seemed to have been getting the ideas and instructions on how to kill the victims from these 3 bad spirits. Whenever they appear on the electronic devices, chances are someone will turn up dead.

So, he finally managed to track this guy down and was trying to save another hostage from dying but he was attacked by the 3 spirits and ended up dead himself. The last scene showed as his son was leaving his funeral, suddenly there’s a crackle on the radio and he somehow heard his dead dad’s voice and smiled to himself. Hmm weird huh? Suddenly his son is an expert in listening to EVP and bravo!! he doesn’t need a magnetic tape to do that. Well, maybe it’s just a sign to show him that his dad and mom were reunited in the dead world, and forgetting the fact that they are leaving him behind. Poor him.

The concept of EVP is an interesting theory since there has been many cases reported on how the dead called up their living loved ones or relatives. It can be a good film if they put in more details in it. The film lacked so much emotions; love, suspense and even fear. The father seemed to totally neglect his son after his wife’s death and forever asking his sister to take care of the son when they were supposed to be a loving family. And there’s so many unanswered questions like who the heck are those 3 bad spirits? Who in the world is that bad guy who goes around killing everybody and getting lesson to do it from dead spirits?

You can watch this film if you like but there’s nothing much to see. And for those who are scared to watch ghost & thriller movies, be rest assured that you can watch this one with your eyes wide open. There’s no gory figures out to scare you.

And oh, by the way, don’t take up EVP as a hobby. It is mighty expensive to buy the equipments. Not worth it if you just want to listen to some dead people saying a word or two. For all you know it might be a faulty radio transmission.

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Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Help Me, Anyone?

I can't seem to be able to post picture/ photoss on my blog. The Hello BloggerBot will write this: Please wait while your images are uploaded. But then, it seems to be going nowhere. It didn't send over the pics to my Blog.

Have tried some troubleshooting, even trying to change to a new template (just in case it's the template problem) but nothing seems to work. Or are the network people blocking the uploads? Can anyone help me out on this?

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Friday, April 22, 2005

My Friend? Ha Ha What A Liar

What is a friendship? Many regard them as a blessing, a gift, something that you treasure. The same goes to me, I regard friendship as something precious. There are certain kind of people who have different categories of friendship. As what a late uncle of mine used to say;
The kinds of friends there are:

Sidewalk friend - the kind you don't really trust and would treat as someone who you just say Hi! to and then walk away.
Coffee shop friend - the kind that you would chat on daily work routines and what's the latest news in the world, which artist is seeing each other, what's the latest movie and stuff like that but not on your personal life.
House invited friend - the kind you will invite to your house and treat them as a family. You can sit down with them to listen discuss on personal matters but to a certain extend.
Sharing the same pillow friend - This is the highest level of friendship whereby your tell almost everything to this person, things you will never tell your family. They are your soulmates and you understand each other perfectly. (It could be your spouse)

I am not the kind of person to categorized my friends: you are either my best friends, or just my friends or a total stranger. If you and I were strangers, when we say Hi! to each other, you can become my friend. It is that simple. I believe I don't have any enemy, I hate it when other people have negative thoughts on me or talk behind my back. Not that I can control them, anyway but as long as you don't offend me, I will not find you offensive. That is how it has always been and I like it that way.

I have been upset these last few days. Been hearing some NOT-SO-GOOD stories about me lately. It seems that one of my colleague (or more than one, i seriously don't know) has been suspecting me of being a two faced. Being nice to them in front of their faces but tell stories about them to our superior behind their back.

I was shocked when I heard about this. Especially when these people are those I consider as quite dear friends and always pleasant to talk to. The kinds I thought would never have double thoughts on me what more accused me of something so awful and untruthful. I've done nothing except extending my friendship and yet this is happening, I just can't believe these people would dare to accused me behind my back instead of confronting me! What more when it is all LIES ! LIES! and came out of nowhere. Just based on an assumption that was 100% wrong.

Even when my other friend has already clear the air for me, saying that I wasn't the backstabber or "spy" they should be worried about, the damage has already been done.

I can forgive them if they shouted at me for no reason, make offensive jokes, wasted my time by telling outrageous stories, take my belongings without my permission or even treat my stuff as if they were theirs BUT when they acted like they are my friend, pretending to care for me but behind me they treat me as a backstabber, I find that unforgivable and no matter what they did to amend the mistakes, my perception towards them will never be the same. They can't just say sorry and pretend everything is back to normal when it is not. Kata orang; terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kata binasa la jawabnya. You might say that I overreact but if the same thing happens to you, how would you cope? What would you do? Don't you agree that the betrayal of a friend is the worst thing that can happen ? By having double thoughts on me, surely that is a betrayal from that person.

Once the package of friendship is opened, it can never be closed. When I first opened their packages, there were perfect apples in them, only to find the rotten maggots lying underneath it.

I am sorry if I offended anyone with this posting. I just want to get this load off my chest. At least I will not think about it too much. There are other fishes in the sea, as to they are other friends in the world. We just have to find the right one. Once in a while we might stumble across people like this, they are not even worthy as my uncle used to say, as a SideWalk Friend.

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Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Patience Is The Heart Of Virtue

I was on leave yesterday. Finally, I managed to find the time to go and see my gynae. It was 5 months since my last visit to her clinic. I was supposed to see her every month , but I kept postponing. Maybe because I wanted to wait for the 6 months period, just to hear her say that I can start trying to conceive. After my previous complication, she advised me to take a 6 months break and now the 6 months is over.

So, I went in to see her, she did the ultrasound from outside and inside. Alhamduillah, everything looks normal. Then she proceeded with pap smear. To tell the truth, I was a bit scared of pap smear. Worrying of the pain and uncomfort it might caused. Especially when having the lights focused on *you know where* and the metal thing that was inserted. To my relief, it wasn't as bad as i thought. I gotta give credit to my gynae for her gentle and sort of relax approach. It was over in 2 minutes.

I had to do a beta-HCG blood test and this is like the kejulieth time i drew blood this year that i got so used to the needles and can actually stare at the needlepoint as it pierced my skin and into my vein. It was fascinating actually to watch my blood flowed into the tube. Alah bisa, tegal biasa, orang kata.

The results of my pap smear and beta-HCG test will be out by next week. The pap smear looks promising but I am a bit worried on the HCG test. The HCG level in my body should be below 5 or better 0. This is to make sure no more complications arise from my next pregnancy. The last time I checked it was 11. That was 4 months ago, hopefully now it is gone from my blood stream.

Even if the beta-HCG was 0, my gynae advised me as not to get pregnant yet, and wait for another 6 months just to make sure everything is ok. 6 months is actually a short period of time, but it seems like ages to me. Of course it does when you plan to get pregnant quick.

But if that's what the doctor dictated, i have to comply. Rather than regret for not taking heed.

If Aqus was willing to wait, why can't i?

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Sunday, April 17, 2005

Happy 28th Birthday, Caza!! (16 April)

Yep, I change my blog template again, I like this one better. I like the bubble wave at the top of the page. Might stick with it. See how things goes ;)

I am full up to my head today, been eating since noon. Aqus, my sister and I went to a wedding kenduri in Kelana Jaya. The food was delicious. Since we didn't have any breakfast, we were eating like we hadn't eaten in 5 days :D. Then we went to Caza's house for another session of lip smacking, scrumptious food and of course the indulgence cake. I'm reminding myself not to take a heavy dinner or I might burst.

Thanx dear Caza, and happy 28th birthday to you.

To Caza:

Thank You for being a big part of my life; childhood, kindergarten, primary school, secondary school , my bridesmaid and till now. We have been friends for 23 years and let's be friends for another 23 years to come and till eternity.

Thank you for being a wonderful friend. Although we have grown older and have new circles of friends, we have never grew apart. Thanks for all the support and warmth of friendship that you've shown to me.

I wish you all the best in life and may you have all the things that your heart desired,all your dreams come true but most of all i wish you happines and true love.

P/S: There goes my 7 day diet *sigh

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Friday, April 15, 2005

Amazing Facts

I haven't been blogging lately since nothing much is happening at the moment. I have a few things to tell which I can't at the moment, it is not the right time yet :D. By the way, I'm just sharing some amazing facts for your reading pleasure today. Enjoy. I need a camera phone *sigh*

Apparently 1/3 of people with alarm clocks hit the 'snooze' button every morning, and from 25-34 age group, it is over 1/2. (Are u one of them? I know I am..almost everyday)
It takes about 20 seconds for a red blood cell to circle the whole body.
You can't kill yourself by holding your breath.
There is more bacteria in your mouth than the human population of U.S and Canada combined.
Bulls are not attracted to the colour RED
Barbies full name is Barbara Millicent Roberts
If Barbie were life-size, her measurements would be 39-23-33. She would stand seven feet, two inches tall and have a neck twice the length of a normal human's neck
If you put a piece of scotch tape on an inflated balloon, then stick it with a small pin or needle, it won't pop
Eating breakfast will help you burn from 5-20% more calories throughout the day.
Rubbing cocoa butter on your abdomen during pregnancy will prevent stretch marks.
If you chew a cabbage/lettuce leaf properly, you'll lose more energy than you'll gain from actually eating it.
Thomas Edison, lightbulb inventor, was afraid of the dark. ( That explains the light bulb invention)
Our eyes are always the same size from birth, but our nose and ears never stop growing.
The sound you hear when you macho people crack your knuckles is actually the sound of nitrogen gas bubbles bursting.

You will have to walk 80 kilometers for your legs to equal the amount of exercise your eyes get daily. (if only eye exercise can make u lose weight!)
The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue
Michael Jordan has more money from Nike annually than all of the Nike factory workers in Malaysia combined..
Only female mosquitoes bite. Males only drink water and plant juice.
Nutmeg is extremely poisonous if injected intravenously. (nutmeg jeruk is nice...)
Neck ties were first worn in Croatia.
An Octopus has 3 hearts! (Did you see the eat live octopus on Explorace? Gooeeyy & Squishy)
If the population of China walked past you in single file, the line would never end because of the rate of reproduction (they reproduce while in the single file;) )
Penguins are not found in the North Pole
Most people know what pH means, but few people know that it stands for pondus hydrogenii which means potential hydrogen and that each unit is a phidron.
Right-handed people live, on average, nine years longer than left-handed people do.
All the coal, oil, gas, and wood on Earth would only keep the Sun burning for a few days.
Your body releases growth hormones when you sleep.
You cannot sneeze with your eyes open. ( I hear they will pop out due to the pressure?)
Toothbrushes should be kept 6 feet away from the toilet to avoid being contaminated by airborne stuff stirred up after flushing (Toilets in Malaysia has enuff space meh, to put your tootbrush 6 feet away?)
Zebras are not black with white stripes, but are actually white with black stripes, coz if any of you animal lovers happen to stare at it's butt, you'll notice that the black stripes end there. (Care to look??)

Zero point energy is a source of energy which is released when atoms stop moving, at -273 Celcius. Impossible?

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Monday, April 11, 2005

The Short Life Span Of An Arowana

Remember my previous posting on our pet fishes? Well, I came home from work last Thursday around 7.30pm to find our arowana dead at the bottom left-corner side of the aquarium, in a nose-dived position. Ermm..he seemed to look fine the morning before we left for work.

Of course, then I had to break the news to Aqus since he's not home yet. I called him and told him about the fish. He's fond of the fish and I hate to make him sad. He didn't sound too upset over the phone, probably because he didn't want his friends to mock him for mourning over a dead pet. He came home around 9.30 and cleaned the whole aquarium. Or probably trying to erase his mind off the fish. Luckily our 5 gold fishes are still there, swimming around freely since they can have the whole aquarium to themselves now.

It seemed we still have a lot to learn on taking care of arowana. Mix them around in one aquarium with other fishes (even with the separator) will effect them, give the young arowana crickets or small fishes that are too big for them will spoil their digestion and you have to leave the aquarium machine on for 4 days before putting them in there.

To me, the incident that happened on the arowana is a reflection of how delicate and fragile life is. One moment you're here, the next you might not. Applying the situation on me, despite the fact that I no longer enjoy working at my current company, I should be thankful everyday that GOD has granted me another day to live for.

Sometimes you wonder how lucky some people were to be born with a silver spoon in their mouth. Sometimes you wished that you're born that way too, to live a luxurious life and buy anything you heart desired. Sometimes we tend to forget that health superceeds wealth in so many way. What good is all the money in the world if you can't trade them for a healthy body (or mind)?

I have a lady friend who has everything that life could offer her, youth, wealth, looks, luxury, life with the rich and famous and a firm career. 3 years ago, she was diagnosed with a spinal nerve complications which affected her body functionality system. She had to seek medical care locally as well as going to Australia. She had to leave work for 1 month and when she recovered, it wasn't 100%. We kinda fell out of touch except for rare outing occasions when she got transferred, but 4 days ago I received a call from her. She has been admitted again since the nerve complications has affected her brain and right side of the body functions. The doctors are still trying to work the best treatment for her but I fear that it would be another series of hospital visits. I am praying for her to recover. At the age of 29, she has a lot to live for.

I know that I should be grateful that I am healthy. Despite minor illness and some complications here and there, most of the times I have nothing much to complain about. I might not have a lot of money or fat deposits in the bank nor drive a luxury car, I am content just having enough to live by and of course, surrounded with loved ones and friends.

But, being a mere human, there are times when I get negative impact from another human's action. I guess i have to look at life in a more positive light and to enjoy every breath of air that GOD has granted me. I hope I can do that...........just have to give it try.

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Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Wondrous of A Married Life

Weekends went as normal, we went back to Aqus' hometown, Melaka since he got to settle some family issues. I was looking forward for Nora's wedding on last Sunday but we couldn't make it , so we're going to her husband's side this coming Sunday.
It is true they say that when we got married, our life will take a 180 degree turn, in some cases a complete 360 degrees (in cases when you got married to Datuks and VIP and had to learn all the protocols). Life takes a whole different view.
When I was single, I didn't have to think about any one else in every decisions and actions I made. Although parents played some role in decision-making, they practically leave everything to my own judgement when I started working.
But now, after getting married I realized that every decision i make,I have to take consideration on the consequences or the impacts on my other half and soon my children. There are times when I tend to take things in my own hands and not discuss it first. Call it my original behaviour of doing things on my own. But I will find myself regretting if in the end when my actions hurt my other half.
Marriage life requires patience, sacrifice, willingness to listen, to give and take and always be truthful to your spouse. I know that I am changed from the old me but for the better. I used to be lazy and most of the time leave the house chores for my mother to do. I practically never lift a finger except when washing and ironing my own clothes. Now that I'm married and had to do most of the house chores on my own like cooking, washing, drying,folding , ironing and keeping the clothes, cleaning the house but of course, with help on several RARE occasions (he he), I realized that it wasn't as easy as I thought. I took for granted most of the things mom did while I was staying with her. Being a housewife is just as hectic and tiring as having a working career.
Yes, I do miss my singlehood life. The freedom and not-a-care in the world moments. Going out with friends, window shopping, bowling, lepaking at the mamak stall, going for movies.
But if I had the wish of going back to being single and unmarried, I choose NOT to have that wish because being married is far more wonderful than being single. To have somebody there for you to talk to, pour your heart out, to express your love and getting all of it back in return is very precious. To have someone with you almost all the time and tended to you when you're sick, giving advices when you're at lost and needed guidance. I wouldn't give it up for the world.

TO THE NEWLYWEDS : NORA & AZIZI - Selamat Pengantin Baru dan semoga kekal ke akhir hayat. May you live a wonderful life together and InsyaALLAH blessed with beautiful children.

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