I have not been updating my blog for ages. Being busy will be the easiest and most "safe" reason. But the truth is i find myself not committing to blogging. I love to read others though, especially dear friends of mine. To me, it is a way of keeping in touch. And to keep myself updated with their latest activities. Or their latest opinion. I just don't feel like picking up the phone or smsing them. It is not justified, I know but working life can really make you succumb in your own cocoon at the end of a hectic work's day.Feel like curling up like a ball and sleep throughout the night and not wanting to wake up the next day to repeat your routine work..like how do these people work for 30 years ++ when i am struggling entering my 8th year of working?
A lot has happened and a lot is still happening while i was quiet from blogging. We are moving office again due to the realignment. I will most likely be in Menara TM and doing new job functions, and ya, along with the promotion with bigger responsibilities. It's good to be acknowledged, it is what i have wanted all this while, but when i have it, why do i feel like i don't really want it?
I don't want to do anything right now except curl up next to my son. Or maybe I'm just a lazy bum. Btw, Iyaad is turning 1 soon and he is such a bundle of joy to watch. Only if i can spend more time with him. But unless you're born with a silver spoon in your mouth, take off your lazy bum off the floor and go to work!
I missed my friends dearly. Most of all i missed the moments spent together. My childhood friends, my kindergarten friends, my mengaji friends, my padang friends, my school mates, my tuisyen mates, my U mates. I missed laughing out loud until tears ran down our cheeks, I missed all the silly gestures, facial expression and jokes we passed around and we laughed..and laughed...and laughed..until we felt our chest were bursting. I can't remember the last time that i've laughed out loud. Frankly, I hardly laughed nowadays. That's what working does to you. Takes your sense of humour away and put in the stress, strain, the neverending tasks....and give extra on the migrain and gastric department. Not to mentioned giving the sedentary life that is so deskbounded and unhealthy.
I am such a sore and lousy friend. Hard to swallow but i admit that. I hardly keep in touch, never call or pay them visits. All i do is just think of them and wondering how they are, and what they are doing at the moment. And if they still remember me. How are they to know they are dearly missed? Unless we share ESP or something, then prolly they will think of me when my thoughts called to them. And how i subconciously will type their name in Google or Yahoo in hoping it will land on some info bout them. Or maybe a fotopage if i'm lucky.
I am feeling dreary and miserable. Probably because i'm still recuperating from my fever and the stupid pay is not in yet, when there's a lot of neccessities to buy.....