Forgive Me For I'm Merely Human
Life has been a mix of everything these past 2 weeks. Work is still pouring in although it's almost year-end. There's a lot of things that has been happening around me that makes me stop and wonder about myself. It's funny why some people regard year-ends as the time to sit back and relax when time doesn't seem to be on our side. Do you really have the time to enjoy every minute of life when there's people above you chasing your deadlines like mad, 24 hours round the clock only for them to have that vacation leisure? Is there a way for you to escape this never ending harassing and for once has the essence of time for you to dictate and take control of?
It will not stop I tell you. Not until you close your eyes forever. But do you know when that time will come when the angel of death is at your doorstep? Or when your life "leaf" has fallen to the ground from the mighty tree and counting 100 days when you will leave this Earth? Are there any signs of demise before somebody actually passed on to afterlife? What do you tell Malaikat Izrail when he is already there to take your soul? Wait se-minit, I have a proposal paper I have to complete?
Some old folks said you can sense when a person is about to die from their face; among them their nose and ears will start to wither, their eyes will become dull and the face pale. But if you're busy chasing after the to-be-deceased-person's work and assignments to be done, will you stop and look for these signs? *sigh. Of course not. Because we never expect our colleagues to passed on so early in their life or we never think such thoughts. Only to have regrets later because of the words unsaid to them once they're gone.
It's terrible isn't it? If only we knew when death is approaching, we would have seek amends from the person who is permanently leaving us. To seek forgiveness from them for any of our wrongdoings. To hold their warm hands one last time before they turned cold. To smile at them and have that smile return. To talk to them on the precious things they love most so that we can remember them by the things they treasure most. To look them in their eyes and sincerely ask them how they were doing instead of asking about work 24/7. Alas, as human we can never know such moments. That is why GOD tells us to be good to others and seek truce. Never hold any grudges with each other because we will never know when one of us will die.
The news of her death came as a shock to me. I got to know about it early that Friday morning and I shook it off in disbelief, thinking that probably I was dreaming or something. But when I saw her on the mortuary table, that's when the tears started coming. She was an active, healthy, 27 year old young lady and now she is gone. Just a few days back we were discussing on work and how we're going to work together to make a project successful this coming January 07. But January 07 never came for her. She has to move on leaving behind her beloved son and husband to go on living without her. My heart ached knowing her son Danny will never see his mom again. And for a child of 3 years old, death is something he will not understand. What will his daddy tell him when he constantly cries out for his mom? I pray to ALLAH to bless her soul and lay her to rest among the para mukminin. InsyaALLAH. Only sepotong surah Al-Fatihah and Yaasin yang dapat disedekahkan mengiringi pemergianmu buat kali terakhir. Sesungguhnya Dunia hanyalah sementara, Akhirat jua yang kekal selamanya. Yusrina Dear, you will always be remembered as a good friend to many of us. You have no wrongdoings to me and I hold nothing against you. Thank you for being a good friend. I seek forgiveness for any wrongdoings in the past and semoga rohmu tenang di sampingNya.
Tomorrow still comes for the rest of us to tell our family how much we love them. To kiss and hold our beloved child in our arms and hold them close to our heart. To smell the sweet scent of our baby's skin and the sparkle in their eyes. To hear their laughter and cry again and again. To wake up in the morning and see the faces of our loved ones lying next to us. To know that you have been granted another day to live and breathe.
Make the best of the coming days for we never know when time is up for us. There's been buzzing of excitement in the office about upgrading and stuffs. I wasn't part of the excitement. But then I asked myself, should I be upset about it? What is my main priority? Will people be asking me as I lay dead whether I have received my upgrading or be promoted? Will they be asking me how much my salary was before I die? How many successful promotions I've completed? Or will they be asking me WHO are the LOVED ONES i'm leaving behind? So, I have to learn to set my PRIORITIES in life. It hurts not to be acknowledged, for I am merely human but I know there's a lot of things in life I should be thankful about. Thankful and grateful to ALLAH for the family he has granted me, my parents, siblings, my husband, my beautiful son which I have been waiting for 3 years and yes all my friends. And for all of these, I know I have been rewarded with a good and complete life. I will cherish and make more time for them.
To all of my friends out there,
If there has been any time or situation that i have ever offended you, I am truly sorry and seek forgiveness from all of you. I might have unintentionally caused any of you discomfort or hurt your feelings. For all of these please accept my sincere apology for I am merely human.....
Mothers, touch your children,
Fathers, hug them tight.
Fathers, hug them tight.
Let them know you love them
Morning, noon, and night.
Put your arms around them,
Hold them near to you,
Feel the beating of their hearts,
The life that you made new.
Roll around the floor with them,
Tease and laugh and play.
Listen to what they'll tell you,
They have so much to say.
Take time to get to know them,
See the colors in their eyes.
Appreciate that person
That deep inside them lies
Let them run their fingers through
your hair and down your face.
Fill their hearts with words of praise.
Make home their favorite place.
Cuddle with them on the couch
And watch a t.v. show.
Sing with them or share a book,
And help their world to grow.
Take a walk into the park,
Hold each other's hand,
Build castles in the sand.
Mothers, touch your children,
Fathers, hug them tight.
Show them what a gift they are.
To love them feels so right.
~Author: Kathie Davis~
Morning, noon, and night.
Put your arms around them,
Hold them near to you,
Feel the beating of their hearts,
The life that you made new.
Roll around the floor with them,
Tease and laugh and play.
Listen to what they'll tell you,
They have so much to say.
Take time to get to know them,
See the colors in their eyes.
Appreciate that person
That deep inside them lies
Let them run their fingers through
your hair and down your face.
Fill their hearts with words of praise.
Make home their favorite place.
Cuddle with them on the couch
And watch a t.v. show.
Sing with them or share a book,
And help their world to grow.
Take a walk into the park,
Hold each other's hand,
Build castles in the sand.
Mothers, touch your children,
Fathers, hug them tight.
Show them what a gift they are.
To love them feels so right.
~Author: Kathie Davis~
Labels: Self-reflection
ila,
sity pun nak mintak maaf ye kalau ada tersalah kata tersingung perasaan... :)
Posted by
Unknown |
10:29 AM
ila, mai pun sama, u've been a good friend to me all this while...maafkan mai kalo ada salah silap gak...tak smpt lagik jumpa baby iyaad...tp umah dkt jek kan?
Posted by
happy2gether |
12:32 AM