Ray Of Hope For Azalea

12 hours i am unhappy (7.30am - 7.30pm) because I will be at work. Yes, I arrive at 7.30am at the office most days now

5 hours of relaxed moments (7.30pm - 12.30am) spending time watching tv, dining or simply lazing around with my husband or getting visits from my family & friends sometimes

6 hours of tranquility (12.30am - 6.30am) is when i go to sleep

1 hour of for performing solat, taking my bath and other stuff

As you can see, 12 hours of my time is spent at work and as you know, i don't enjoy working here anymore. 50% of unhappiness every day is too much of a burden to me now.

Whine, whine away, Azalea, get yourself another job.

Yes, I am really into that now.

Bout time for me to go, following the footsteps of my friends who are resigning.
Perhaps the perfect job is out there for me, somewhere, I just got to find it.

It is ironic that I have been here for 5 years and I am witnessing friends who are here for 3 years or even less than that saying goodbye to us. We're losing 2 more very soon.

The time will come, I'm sure of it when it will be my turn to say goodbye to those who stay or have no choice but to stay.

What will motivate me to stay here? At this moment, nothing anymore.

Perhaps a few months back, some appreciation for the work I've done or how I used to arrive at work by 8.40 am before but now at 7.30am, sitting here alone writing this when no one is around yet.

No, I am not looking for recognition. Just some thoughts and appreciation for this executive of yours who have been here for 5 damn years. And for the fact that I AM the most senior executive here.

That doesn't stop the mocking tone of his voice whenever I was on MC, which is not a common thing I do. Funny how he didn't pick on others on the same issue.

Pray for me my dear friends, pray that I will get a better job, let me win this battle. Maybe then the realization will set in, that I too am important here.

I am tired of living an unhappy life. I have 12 satisfactory hours everyday now, I want to make it a full 24 hours.

He wants to see me at 8.30am this morning. Probably giving more tasks or some nagging in the morning. He's been doing a lot of that lately.

Whatever. It is going to be a long, long day.